I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make through without a way back into love
Oh-oh
I’ve been watching
but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching
but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
and I’m open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping that you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end
Don’t know why I still slept on my side of the bed
The emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my head
Told myself I really had to move along now
Stop regretting all the things I left unsaid
So I tore up your letters
Took your picture off my wall
I deleted your number, it was too hard not to call
Felt a little better, told myself I’d be fine
Got to live for the good times up ahead
‘Cos everywhere I go
There’s a love song that reminds me of you
And even though I knew I had to be strong
I was still not over you
‘Cos I still believe and I could see how there’s nothing left of you and me
That time is over
‘Cos I’m so not over you
All my friends try to tell me better find somebody new
Why waste time being lonely when there’s nothing left to lose’
Anything to get you out of my mind
I’m a fool if I thought I could forget
And I could not forget
Now I found a way to keep you there beside me
To where my love won’t be denied
I can only hope to keep you there and guide me
There’s no more need to hide from all this pain inside
So not over you
That time is over
‘Cos I’m so not over you Not
Just because you know that your relationship is no good doesn’t make the process of ending it any easier. Even if you have reached the realization that he’s (or she’s) just not that into you, you’re just not that into him (or her), or you’re mutually not that into each other, that doesn’t mean that you’ve been succesful at pulling the trigger… It’s hard to have the courage to walk away from the comfort of relationship, even a bad one, and be alone for what may be a while. What’s more, it’s easy to find reasons not to end it: … But here’s the thing to remember: wasting time in a relationship that blows is just that —– wasted time. Time that could be spent looking for and meeting the person who’s destined to be your perfect match. Ultimately, there’s no benefit to hanging on, you’re merely procrastinating and delaying the inevitable. Staying in a relationship that’s on a life support isn’t going to bring it back to life…
(Thank you Greg and Amiira for the book)
